Lately life has felt like a pretty big struggle.
I'm back on my chemo after a fairly long break (started up about a week ago). I'm sitting here wanting to write, but not knowing what to say. My needle is beside me and I know that I should just get it over with but everytime I think about it or look at it, I get a rush of anxiety.
Tonight I think I need a friend to talk to and remind me why I am doing this. (My kids, my husband, my parents, my whole family, my friends, my health, my contentment, my well-being - which in turn will lead to my kid's well-being)
The hard part is over. This should be easy. It shouldn't be such a struggle right now. I should just DO IT! Get it over with.
((hugs)) Sorry it is such a struggle right now. I hope you were able to get through it and that tomorrow will be an easier day.
ReplyDeleteSometimes when I feel the anxiety/cancer head coming on I decide to turn it off and stop thinking altogether. I make a date with myself to think about it again the next day. I think the decision to think about it tomorrow is what helps me to actually stop thinking about it. Usually by the time I come back to it in the light of day, things seem much more manageable. xx
I'm so sorry this is so hard. You can do this! Big hugs to you.
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